November 13, 2020
Did you know that anxiety and fear only look the same but aren’t? Fear deals with what’s happening right now whereas anxiety deals with what’s in front of us. Both get your heart rate up and both have a way of ripping us down. The smallest things are taking us out. A simple checkup at the doctor today has me spinning in circles. The doctor! Covid central! People go to the doctor when things aren’t right. Not when the world is looking good. I did all I could to get in by 7am. The first! No go. Then meet me out in the car! Nope. Man, these are some changing times. 10.5 million Covid cases in America. Nothings changing. Because we won’t change! I didn’t have any problems going to the dentist a few weeks back. Why this reaction to the doctor? Probably cuz I always feel guilty. I’m not one of those perfect people. I have to look at the little things. I’ve lost weight since our last pow wow. No Covid 15 for me! I walk a lot. In touch with nature. Meditation on the move. Listening to the wind. Studying the art of the universe. Got to keep my legs strong. If the nation falls we’re all gonna have to hit the path. The weak are always left behind. Got my meditation music on right now. Inside this out of control world are millions of minds that are making matters worse by way of putting energy into the presence of fear and anxiety. The little things! Concentrate on the stuff we naturally push away. My very very very loud bird chuckled when I whispered “I love you.” The little things! You feel peace not pieces. Your heart calms before the next storm. I used my Picasso writing instrument this morning. It’s so smooth. Yessssss! The little things! If you’ve ever used a pen that feels like its dragging then you know why the Picasso was the perfect choice. With so much negativity endlessly reshaping us it’s so easy to get wrapped up in other people’s drama. You can listen but you can’t carry it with you. When the conversation comes to a conclusion dump your trunk right there on the spot. If you don’t it’s gonna turn into gossip and have a bad after taste. Be in control of your worry by knowing the route to physical conversations and not texting or emailing. Too much emotion is wasted on assuming you know where another person mentally is. Pick up the phone and start the talk. Flip the switch on anxiety and fear by being present here. Knowing how to belong without having to misbehave. Awareness of your emotions and feelings is a great sport to play but when it’s the only thing you’re playing it burns out your systems of choice. Be present. Be prepared to say, “No not today.” Get control of what’s taking you out.