Many devotees have heard the Supreme Pontiff of Hinduism narrate how when He was 17 years of age, He left home and His biological parents never interfered in the life-course of the Cosmos itself. He commended them with gratitude for putting aside their grief and allowing the grander plan to take action as it was destined to do so.

For the biological mother of The Avatar, she only recently revealed what she actually wet through when her Divine Son, the Incarnation of Paramashiva Himself, left her home. It wasn't as if she never went through anything when her Sun and Center was all of a sudden gone from her life. She went through months of intense feeling separation from Him. But her own depression was never great enough to impose her need on her Son which is what makes her perfect for being a channel for the Happening of The Avatar.

Of course, eventually, by the grace and healing of SPH Himself she was able to find relief and the last grief that even her soul would ever feel was simply released from her system.

In this audio memoir of SwamiAmma, she remembers how when the Supreme Pontiff of Hinduism would travel abroad and devotees sobbed upon His departure. At this time, she shares that SPH told her, "Don't you think that you should cry like the others. All that you need to suffer your life is done"

As simply as His pure will was expressed from His Divine Form, so simply was it manifested in her reality. From that day, never once did tears fall from SwamiAmma's eyes- even through the finally passing and liberation of both her husband and her father and even the immense torture that she would see her Divine Son put through at the hands of anti-Hindu forces. Throughout, no matter the extent of so-called pain, her chastity to her Guru's words for her remained untouched and intact above it all.