March 23, 2021
I’ve always been a morning person. Totally convinced that I wake up several times during the night because I’m anxious to get a new day started. Creative minds work at different times. Which can easily lead to disconnections. The “rumor” was Eddie Van Halen was extremely active in the studio at unheard of hours. Sammy Hagar couldn’t always make himself available. That’s a strange word “Available.” We use to the point of abusing it. Yeah I’m available. But are you? We tend to time stamp our ability to be available. When it’s not met a series of excuses are unleashed. You really weren’t available. You were able but it comes with boarders. On December 28, 2020 I was able to write during the Carolina winter sunset. Remember, I’m a morning person. To see a sunset doesn’t always mean I’m available. Our energy and the art of bringing it outward changes with each passing hour. I happen to be at Andrew Jackson State Park while the rest of the world was enduring the sharp rise in Covid-19 numbers. Grateful for any sunset during these days of constant uncertainty. To get there didn’t require me to be available but physically be able. I find it to be inspiring to watch people. The winds of change have rerouted so many paths. Scary is knowing how much it’s costing. Not everybody is available to work the jobs once held. They’re able though to walk through different essential doors. In my journal on that late December day becoming night I wrote, “Peace, solitude and mindfulness. Preparing the heart for all things unfair, unpredictable and unwritten.” I think it was a peace filled way of openly admitting how unavailable we were and still are to believing our present circumstances. Therefore through personal growth we are able to change. Just like the trees at Andrew Jackson, the water in the lake and the clouds in the sky that disappear much faster than they appear. Available versus able. Give your heart a break. Changing one word in our daily vocabulary relieves anxiety. You’re perfectly able even when you aren’t available.