Audio transcript: In the present I find that I have to get in the habit of making these recordings I took a little bit of a break and I wasn't really on i wasn't thinking when I did decide to take the break I just was like OK and yeah oh I mean whatever but I'm trying to say is that you're supposed to do the bad job and no job so I have to do a podcast and I feel like the quality of the Podcasts it's just not gonna be there haven't really been reading the newspaper so I can't favor and just do the news and save my commentary on it I literally have to talk about something like for my life and I'm not really in the mood to something from my life but I'll go ahead and give it a shot and one thing I will say is that I have been writing a chapters in the book and I'm not happy with him all I think I read a really good piece of advice I basically said if something doesn't feel right now I don't know just delete it and start a war so like I have two chapters written that I'm not happy with him so i just delete them or change them I don't know I feel like it's better to just start over all the chapters and he has to go back and rewrite them because we right now is very tedious and then you have to go back into the way read it read it and everything unless you're just doing corrections or clarifications I feel like the whole flower the writing was not a good friend that's fine that's why I'm not happy and I feel like I initially planning to write the but just as a human piece I was gonna have kind of like a little bit of an uplifting message I feel like I need to kind of take a a little bit of a priority away from it because the problem I'm having is that I feel like it's taking too much attention for me and I wanna get it over with and then I want to have another book on the way because I am I am not tired of the subject I just feel like it's something that I don't want to be on forever I am I have my own personal reasons and then I have my own nice to have a another professional reasons you can't just kind a like one of the things for your like I have to recuse myself I don't want to recuse myself but I have experiences there were some thing since Kylie brothers like you have to like pick three or something I don't even know I am but I'm gonna go and I think that this is everything that I want to talk about I didn't necessarily I'll put this together in an outline or a script which is probably the easier way to follow up because you're supposed to they are well today I'm gonna talk about these three things and then you talk about the these three things that you have a cliffhanger or something that's like I'll look this where are your old AMC figured out how to develop something and then you're like oh wow I'll stay for the commercial break I love you I don't have anything like that I i literally am just PayPal thing I am but maybe that's kind of a good thing at least I can get into the habit of trying to recover things is that her Allen hopeless kind like me I'm just kidding but I think that's gonna have to do it for now and let's say i am I spent a lot of time organizing because I feel like I am it helps me but the problem I have but that is that it takes so much time and I push the least important thing to talk about it's kind like if you're building a house and then you're like oh well I spent like I spent like a month or two like just doing concrete and like running electric holidays like wow it's still had to be done there's lotta things in the book that are like not very glamorous for Friday night like doing research like you know like i am I went on Botanica and literally got a definition for Catholicism because I'm just thinking like OK this is research so I like put the playing put the names of the people and everything so I can do for a Docs and like this is so Monday like there's not but like it Hass to be done so it's like what else like what I talk about I don't even now I mean I am pretty impressed that I can do all that on the phone I'll give it back but i owe the other one I have been trying to figure out what to do as far as the documentary goes because I don't think I have enough space on my phone I might have enough space so I'm still like not 100% on that but I am yeah I would probably want to see how I can get this document I can play I can say I feel like I'm not really short of resources because I already have an idea of how I can illustrate on the points really quickly and one of them is that I was just gonna do what a cutaway where it's like two personalities and I play both of them because ideally you would have somebody that you interview and then you just put everything on the person being interviewed but I'm I think for this I should probably just handle it myself because I don't have to I don't have any ultimatums for myself hopefully I don't think I do at least not my conscious make my subconscious what is my ultimatum Alan you have to I don't know all right well I i think that's pretty much at all from my personal blog are this week and I'll be doing I am similar traps and some pretty cool I think hopefully hi make it on time and I'll and I don't skip on that because I'll be kind of embarrassing him so I guess here's tell yourself or lining inside and a happy new year happy new year everybody just kidding I just wanna like see if someone if I was paying attention and what is the new yeah I mean with Covid and everything it seems like things are sometimes it's kind of like him I was reading what was actually really missed the part where I was listening to the audio version but are inside scientific American they have this thing where I am never talk about Covid dreams and just seem very true and kind of like I don't know like sometimes I feel like I'm walking to silent hill or something I am i mean I don't know but I'm gonna get going and this is how much the podcast and everybody a happy Easter and happy yeah CC is anyone paying attention like and I wonder if somebody like you can hear that and it's like oh yeah it's New Year's like and like kind of wrong with it because you're like I didn't know I was New Year's like because it kind of seems like something that like what covid like things are running and like there's like a some kind of like thing or things just keep running over each other like not again vehicle like and I like kind of a pain but the pain is just like like running and it's not like sequential anymore I guess I don't get all Jerian depressed it's more like well let's see it as this new normal or something I am anyway I am going to get going now this time and it's just a regular day anybody that was listening like war of the worlds like oh my gosh everybody thought of the fucker a doctor that I am yeah cause I definitely have had my bunker experience to find out that things are not as bad as you think they are so yeah don't do that either all right everybody will have a good day and I'm gonna try to become a better writer so I don't waste everybody's time and yeah this is the path aerial blog sign off CarPlay I'm just gonna head stop OK I